Stuck - literally...
So I've been stuck lately.....
I just feel stuck...
I have deadlines piling up and, well, like I said, I just feel stuck....
You know that feeling?
Anyway, I was talking on the phone this morning on the way back from Therapist - started going again a couple weeks ago - after realizing that I had lost a ton of weight, and, well, just felt stuck and anxious....
So I was talking to my friend on the phone about feeling blue, got on the elevator, pushed my office floor and she was going on about how everyone once in a while felt stuck, that she has, and that you just have to take things day by day, or step by step, or something "The Secret" like. I haven't read The Secret, but my friend has.
But I had stopped paying attention because quite literally I was stuck. I've never been stuck in an elevator before, but there I was stuck somewhere between some floor. The elevator just died. Just like that.
I freaked out. "I'm stuck!" I screamed to my friend.
"I know you said that," my friend said.
"No! I'm stuck in the elevator! What do I do? What do I do?"
"Pick up the phone. Isn't there an emergency phone in there?"
There was. But it wasn't working. It just kept going through to some phone company.
I was seriously starting the hyperventalate, and was pushing the emergency button like crazy.
"Ok, I got to get off the phone," I told her. "I don't want my battery to die in case I have to call 911.
I made a last phone call. I know it's sad but I did. I seriously wondered how long I would be in there, if the elevator would go crashing down, and if I would die wearing sweat pants, my fiance's t-shirt and a flouresent pink bra. I even thought how lucky I was to have spent the night sleeping with The Dictator.
Luckily, in the elevator there was a sign posted about the water being shut off tomorrow, and the office number was on the bottom. So I called down to the front desk. "I'm stuck in the elevator and I'm freaking out," I told the woman who picked up.
"We'll send someone right over," she told me.
"Good, because I'm freaking out!"
And she laughed. Now, what kind of person laughs when you're stuck in an elevator? Anyway....
I was rescued, thank god. And then it hit me. What was God trying to tell me?
Yes, I believe in God. And then I started to laugh and called my friend back. "Can you believe I was complaining about feeling stuck and then I was stuck in a fucking elevator?"
And, after being stuck, literally in the elevator, I don't feel so stuck anymore...
Ah, signs from above....got to love them.